The need to belong and the need to be unowned are in direct friction, and both are real. What follows is a rhythm the native can usually date: a settling, a period of increasing constriction that is denied for months, then an abrupt departure presented as a decision. Relationships end suddenly after long silences. Jobs are left in a single afternoon. Afterwards the native feels relief for about six weeks and then begins looking for somewhere to belong, and the mechanism resets without being recognised.
The domestic detail is characteristic. Small restrictions provoke a response the situation cannot account for: being expected home at a particular hour, being telephoned twice, being asked to commit to a date in August. Intimacy is welcomed and then experienced as surveillance. The native is often the reliable one at work and the volatile one at home, since the constraint is only intolerable where the attachment is. Nerves are quick, sleep is irregular, and irritation precedes any recognition of what has caused it.
The friction is productive and the cost is paid in people. What the square eventually teaches, and no easier contact does, is that freedom has to be built into an arrangement rather than won back by destroying it. The native who negotiates for room, plainly and in advance, keeps both the marriage and the self, and becomes unusually good at helping others out of confinements they have accepted as permanent. The wreckage before that lesson is real, and much of it was avoidable by saying so earlier.
What It Gives
- ◆honesty about needing room
- ◆willingness to break a bad arrangement
- ◆sharp sense of others' confinement
- ◆capacity to start over without self-pity
What It Costs
- ◆closeness experienced as surveillance
- ◆departures presented as sudden decisions
- ◆constriction denied until it detonates
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